Im so stuck between telling an adult and not...well an adult that counts obvi- WAIT- im an adult WOWZA.

Anywho...

theres this tchr i have who everyone loves and adores and her door is always open for us metaphorically and literally but i dont my hands go numb and my throat becomes lumpy its like my entire being tells me not to talk to her but this time i know i went too far idk bro
i have been telling myself for the past 5 years that i will stop but i havent and its only getting worse bu everyday i make up an excuse like shes busy today or ill talk to her tmrw and shit but tomorrow never comes ughhhhhh.

like the responsible older daughter in me knows i should get help but theres just this part of me that wants to cower in my covers but how much longer can i do this?? Until i suffocate?!.

might not, but will update.

......

UPDATE: didnt.

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