I Don't Hate You...

 I don't hate you…

I don't hate you,
I just feel your absence deep in my bones.

I don't hate you,
My heart just feels heavy.

I don't hate you,
I just find it hard to breathe.

I don't hate you,
Everything reminds me of you.

I don't hate you,
I just wish you were here.

I don't hate you,
I just want you by my side again.

I don't hate you,
I just don't want to let you go.

I don't hate you,
I just want to hug you tighter this time.

I don't hate you,
I just hate that you're not here for me.

I don't hate you,
I hate that you don't know.

I don't hate you,
I hate that you don't care.

I don't hate you,
I just hate that I break for you in silence.

I don't hate you,
I just hate that I can't.

I don't hate you,
I just hate that I need you.

I don't hate you,
I just hate that you're not holding onto me anymore.

I don't hate you,
I just want to scream at you.

I don't hate you,
I'm just afraid that you do.

I don't hate you,
I just miss you, a lot.

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