Friday

  "The sadness will last forever."    -Vincent Van Gogh

 i'm tired, so tired of this sadness. no matter how much i try to wait it out, all my efforts are futile. i no longer find joy in the things i'd sell my soul for. sometimes i sit and think for hours and at the end i realise i no longer feel the presence of my soul. like it is there but not really there i feel but dont care. i exist but dont live. i smile but not happy. just sad. so sad.

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